Title: Awakening To My Life

Gender: Female

Age: 53

Sun Sign: Aquarius

Chinese Sign: Wood Goat

Location: Carlsbad, CA

“Then the time came when the risk it took to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”  
                                                                                              - Anais Nin

Buddhist practitioner and student since 1994, biologist/clinical laboratory scientist by education and training, single mother for 19 years to my now 20 year old son, energy “healer”  interested and trained in Quantum Touch, Reiki, Personal Empowerment and Emotional Healing, Cranial Sacral Therapy, Shamanic facilitation (in training),  Flower Essences, homeopathy, and herbs with an emphasis in Traditional Chinese Medicine.  

If one were to label me, I am an HSP, highly sensitive person.  FYI–HSPs are not broken…just wired differently.  Still learning how to remain balanced, stay with the middle way and pace myself in the hustle and bustle of our technology laden world.

The word and label, “healer” is unfortunate.  My belief is that every individual is their own healer (please see my Quotes for the essential of my belief on this topic).  My dream is to help facilitate individuals in finding their own inner healer and while creating a “tool kit” of skills that work for them on their journey, through body, mind and spirit.  As I learn more about Integral Theory, and believe me I am a newbie and have a lot to learn, my hope and dream is to bring an integral approach to what is labeled today as integrative medicine. 

I few years ago after hearing a calling to a new teacher, I became a student of Unfettered Mind, Ken McLeod (Los Angeles, CA). Pragmatic buddhism.  KM lived in a monastery and studied with Kalu Rinopoche. He laid down his robes to bring Wake Up To Your Life and Unfettered Mind to the West.  I am blessed and feel extreme gratitude to be on this incredible path.  It has been and continues to be an awakening of incredible magnitude.  When I wander off the path, I have a local Unfettered Mind teacher to help me find my way back. 

Interesting connections… Ken Wilber's root teacher was Kalu Rinpoche.  My local teacher studied with Kalu Rinpoche at one time.  I met her in the 90's when she taught for Rigpa locally and was a student of Sogyal Rinpoche. Sogyal Rinpoche was my first teacher along with some public teachings I attended with H.H. Dalai Lama.  Which all connects back to my friend/ acupuncturist/mentor who is the first person to call my attention to Tibetan Buddhism and The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying by Sogyal Rinpoche.  The other connection was my son's daycare mom when he was age 1-3 yrs.  After our kids were older we remained friends and in 1994  we were simultaneously reading TBLD by SR unbeknownst to one another.   Shortly after that, she and I  attended a 4 day public teaching with H. H. Dalai Lama at UCLA and received an empowerment that was the beginning of deepening my Buddhist studies and spiritual path.

My spiritual path includes many other teachers.  Recently, Byron Katie, The Work (inquiry into belief), is a great adjunct to Unfettered Mind.  Her book, A Thousand Names For Joy, is also waking me up!!  What an amazing life!

Here is a quote I respect:

We must forgive each other our arising, for our existence always torments others. The golden rule in the midst of this mutual misery has always been, not to do no harm, but as little as possible; and not to love one another, but as much as you can.
 –Ken Wilber, Excerpt B: The Many Ways We Touch - The Calculus of Uncomfort
 

Saturday Morning Pain

Standing at the stove,

   Hot pan, eggs sizzle, staring up at me

Vacant eyes weeping, broken yolks

Teakettle whistle, morning calm ruptures

  Saturday morning, at last…ahhhh

Week's exhaustion, searing pain tears at my limbs 

Shush, be quiet, leave me alone

Don't touch-it hurts too much

Run, run, far away                                                

  Mind wanders to distant, yet familiar place

Heavy heart, foggy head

  Shrouded mountain of my Visions

Dark black clouds, icy rain falling

  Crooked crags, steel-gray rocks

Stretching, moving, resisting

  Life Force rises

Shaking, crying, flailing

Deepest depths, numb and frozen

At once…Sad, Mad and Glad

Wounds gaping, Hope surfaces

  Tears melt away armor

As Holy Water washing over me

Cleansing body, mind and soul

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